Anonymous asked: I just found out one of my friends is dead... He committed less then an hour ago and i just jealous.. Not even sad
Firstly, I’m sorry about your friend. That’s never easy and sad or not, the emotions that come with something like that are difficult, I’m not sure what you believe in, but just know that I’ll be keeping both you and your friend in my prayers.
It’s okay not to be sad. Not everyone is when somebody dies. Everyone deals with it differently and just because people cry in the movies doesn’t mean everyone has to cry in real life. I certainly don’t. You’re not alone in that.
Also, I assume you are dealing with suicidal feelings and that is why you are jealous of your friend. That’s okay, it’s normal to be jealous of someone dead when you want to be dead. People dealing with suicidal idealations often find their heads so full of these idealations its hard to feel anything else, including sadness for a lost friend. This is practically chemical. The chemicals that are making you depressed and suicidal practically take over your brain, leaving little room for other emotions and thoughts. This makes you almost apathetic, caring only about these thoughts.
On that note, I hate that you are in this situation and this mindset. If I can give you any advice during this extremely difficult time in light of your friend dying, it’s to honor their memory by taking care of yourself. Remember all the good times you had with your friend. The laughs, the jokes, the times when you weren’t feeling this way…Your friend wouldn’t want you feeling this way. They wouldn’t want you doing what they did. Take all the joy, all the good, all the amazing memories from your friend’s life, and focus on those in your life right now. And live a life good enough for the both of you, one that would make them proud.
I love you my friend. It’s going to be okay.
Anonymous asked: Its bad tonight, I feel like I might give in and I dont want to. I feel pathetic but whomever you are, are you awake?
My name is Jersey. You didn’t need to feel pathetic, the reason you feel so bad tonight is because you’re probably tired from having been strong for so long. That’s admirable, not pathetic. And yeah I’m awake. And I’ll stay up with you if you need me to.
100th TIP MOTHERFUCKINGFUCKERS!
Hey guys, my 100th tip was today in case the title didn’t tip you off. (Pun?) Thanks to all the continued support and I hope what I’ve been doing has helped some of you guys to be better friends or to better communicate to your friends what you need from them.