It's okay

Yeah man:) I’m making a queue tonight. Sorry I’ve been crazy busy with personal stuff. But I’ll put one up just for you tonight!

Hey there. You’re not selfish. Look, I don’t give a damn about your past. What matters right now is that you’re in pain. And that happens to the best of us regardless of whether our lives have been good or bad. Thinking that people who haven’t had ridiculously fucked up lives can’t be fucked up is like thinking that everyone who has had a hard life will be messed up in the head at some point. I’ve met plenty of people with horrible lives that have never felt the pain a suicidal person has felt. And there are lots of people out there with normal lives that know this pain.

It’s not your fault you feel this way. There’s a lot of mental and chemical factors at work in your body and mind that are contributing to the pain you are feeling. Diseases like depression which can lead to self-harm and eating disorders don’t have to be caused by anything. It can be a chemical imbalance, a family trait, or practically anything. Scientists still aren’t sure what causes it. They aren’t sure it needs a cause. If scientists aren’t sure, then you can’t be sure there is a cause either. Sometimes people just feel this way and that’s okay.

Please don’t cut. I could practically preach for hours on why cutting is dangerous and fucked up, but the most important thing you need to know is you’re worth more than razor blades and scars. You’re worth feeling safe in your own skin. You’re worth a full belly. You’re worth smiling at everyday in the mirror. And since I’m not there, smile at yourself for me okay? And lastly, you’re worth a life. A good life. Please don’t give it up for anything okay. Hold onto it and one day, it’ll all be worth it.

Love you.

JerseyxoXo

Well, you do have to look after yourself. That’s extremely important. But you can’t treat your friend like a burden. That’s never okay. You’re only a true friend if you’re there for your friend when they’re at their worst as well as their best. And right now, your friend is at their worst and they need you. Don’t be a fair-weather friend. One of those people who only cares for their friends when it’s convenient and easy because they aren’t hurting. I’m not sure I agree with your choice just because I strongly believe that you shouldn’t leave someone when they’re struggling. I recommend repairing your friendship but telling your friend that you can’t watch her go through this anymore. That she needs help. And go get her help. Talk to a school counselor, a doctor, even parents might need to be involved. But don’t go behind her back. Tell her what you want to do and get her input on everything. It might take some convincing but the only way to take care of her and you is to seek professional help. It’s really hard for anyone, especially teenagers, to deal with these issues alone and professionals have been trained to make things better. It’s not your fault this is a lot to handle, it is. But you still can’t leave your friend. Let me know what you decide to do.

Lots of love,

Jersey xoxo